My Bumpy Paved Road....

.....because "they" say that roads are paved with good intentions, no?  So - despite my "good intentions," I still haven't made much progress.  That is why I am back in here - to document my lack of progress.

I did get off my arse yesterday morning and knock out 2 miles in the neighborhood.  Sure, it was slow.  There was a LOT of walking - but at least I got back out there.  Of course, I don't jog/walk with an MP3 player (or is it iPods nowadays?) - so - I do a lot of talking in my head.  One of the things I thought about was that I could re-name this blog "Lessons from the Couch Cushions."  Of course, with the exception of my first post - which would be "the flatter the cushions, the fatter the ass" - the blog would be pretty much blank.

Would that mean it was a successful and COMPLETED blog?

Anyway - didn't get any boxes unpacked yesterday.  During my jog/walk, I also thought that as soon as I got back, after my blueberry protein smoothie and my shower, I would unpack the 5 boxes in the bedroom and then clean up that room.  That would be one room completed.  And, as I was sitting out back watching the world go by (slowly!), I also thought that later in the afternoon, after I tackled the boxes in the bedroom - how hard would it be to do the 7 boxes in the living room?

I had my entire day planned out!  Easy-peasy!!!

So - a recap of my day yesterday.  I did my jog/walk.  I had my smoothie.  I watched BBAD.  I ate leftovers from Wednesday.  I went to the grocery store for more aloe juice.  I had a glass of wine and chips and guacamole (yeah - I added chips and avocados to my shopping cart...).  I watched the rest of the Wednesday night shows that I had DVR'd.  I cooked more lobster tail (and cheddar bay biscuits and rice).  I had a couple more boxes glasses of wine while watching evening TV.  Went to bed around 10pm (after staying up to read the discussions to see who won the HOH competition on BB15.)

Yup - that was it.  What a bumpy paved dirt road I live on!

So - got up today and was two pounds heavier than yesterday (probably from all of the salt!)  So - I did FOUR miles of jog/walk.  Thinking, once again, about how easy it would be to do ONLY the boxes in the bedroom (and not clean after - JUST the boxes!)  Finished the jog/walk.  Had smoothie.  Took my shower.  Checked e-mail.  Watched BBAD.  Had breakfast for lunch (eggs, bacon, grits and a biscuit.)  Got up and looked at the bedroom.  Walked out.  Opened one of the boxes in the living room.  Got about 1/3 of it done (it is CDs that go back on a shelf.)  Gave up and watched TV.  Tried to nap.

Right now I am tired, but cannot nap.  I tried working on the box some more - but my head is spinning.  I don't like living in "chaos" or "disorder."  And that is what it is right now.  Until I get my house back in order (literally), I don't think I am going to be able to sort anything out in my life.

I just need to find the motivation!  It HAS to be inside me somewhere.  This is self-destructive.  I need to find it somewhere!

In an effort to stay positive - because I do have to try to motivate myself, no? - I need to consider this day a SUCCESS.  Why?  Well, I knocked out four miles AND I got part of a box done.  That is more than yesterday (and hopefully, less than tomorrow....)

Baby steps...

Three Years Later...

Wow!  I was chatting with someone I really envy admire last night about how to get back to "me."  I will hopefully start posting some of that again - my journey.  If I can get find out how to start again.  Everything is so out of whack right now.  The house is a mess; everything is still in boxes.  I like order, not chaos.  All it would take is to get up off my ass start.

Wish me luck.  Hopefully this will become a "regular" blog again.  Hopefully this will document my progress.  Hopefully it won't be three years between posts.  I read the ones I posted three years ago, and they expressed my frustration at the time.  Amazingly, the frustrations are the same today as they were then.